It’s almost spring and everyone is facing lists of resolutions that may or may not have been said at the start of 2024. The truth is that I myself have been there, saying that I want to be, do, have X,Y,Z only to find another year come and go without X,Y,Z being what I imagined it’d be. Sometimes it means we didn’t put our mind behind our goals, some of you wanted to eat shit last year and never got to, some of you wanted to be more disciplined and only found yourselves slipping more and more into an abyss of uncertainty, others perhaps wanted to achieve some very personal goals and for X,Y, or Z reason have realized that they just couldn’t do it. Shit happens. 

I have been there, life knows there have been many moments in my life where it felt like going in the direction all of you wanted for me was definitely not what I wanted for Myself. You all wanted more in person sessions, videos, shit, etc. What I actually needed was more time for Myself to understand that I have always been different and it is exactly that difference that captured many of your hearts, submission, and minds. What it also meant was that I had to regroup Myself as I am not in this world to be a momentary experience– I Am a transcendental journey.

Reflecting over 2024 thus far

Let’s get into it, it has been a crazy 2024 so far. Everyone is having a field day over the new faces on the scene while everyone is asking “where is the substance?” It is a reflection on the nature of the beast that the adult industry is. Dominas just as performers in any other industry come and go. Clients that served Belle du Jour are still taking sessions to this day–however, the scene is not the same for those of us at the top. Decades of energy are memorialized in individual sessions but not very much is left in terms of legacy. Years of energy placed on technique, aftercare, conscious practice, etc., seem to fade with a few exceptions. All the potential BDSM has to create catharsis, is lost to a dead end– a tingle of the lowest common denominator that lays limply between your legs and shiny new object syndrome.

I am starting a journey into a transformation of sorts–something I have always wanted but wasn’t in the space to create before. It is the journey from a woman who started as a Dominatrix in NYC to a Goddess that expands far beyond the limits of BDSM and its ephemeral nature. 

2024 starts with a new page literally. Here it is. If you’re looking for something to scratch an itch, keep it moving. I’m not the one for you. 

I want to transform men.